Women
Today is Mother's Day. All of my sister-in-laws are moms, or are at least going to be. Sometimes, feel slightly left out with all the moms and babies around me. I know I'm young, still in school and have stuff to do before we have kids, but sometimes the longing for a child brings me to tears. Don't get me wrong, I ADORE being an auntie. When my two-year-old nephew sits beside me and rests his hand in mine, or we walk through the door only to hear 'Auntie!' my heart melts. Or when my almost one-year-old nephew falls asleep in my arms or stops crying or fussing just because I made a silly face. But they're not mine. Sure, one day the tiny socks and cute onesies will fill the laundry and overflow the dresser, but for now, I just want that feeling, to hold a child close and know they're mine. I want sloppy wet kisses leaves marks on my cheeks and nose from my child. Well, God's but He's letting me borrow them for the time being.
I subscribe to a type of devotion, called 'Heart to Heart with Holley.' I read the email earlier last week, and it really touched me. What I missed the first time was a link to the rest of the article. I clicked it today and it was as if God was speaking to my heart. It mentioned that we are all mother because we instinctively are. 'I've come to believe all women are mothers because we all bring life to the world. Most often through the birth of physical children from our bodies. But in other ways too...when we write, cook, plant, make beauty where there was none, speak an encouraging word, say a prayer, take a hand and form hope out of thin air, resurrect a marriage, save a life from poverty, bring forth light and truth and goodness in ways women are uniquely created to do.' As I read I smiled. I write, I cook, I planted, water and bring my garden outside each day, I thought. I feed my fish, watched as he learned to swim to the surface and wait when I picked up his food container. I nurture, I reminiced. I taught, I cared for, I loved. I made a card for my mother-in-law, mom and three sister-in-laws to celebrate their motherhood. If that makes me a mother, I'll take it. One day, I hope, I'll be a mother to my own. Even if they really are only on loan.
(In)Courage: Eve's Daughters
http://www.incourage.me/2010/05/eves-daughters.html
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